Eleven Months and Counting

I am expecting!

I few months ago I can honestly say I did not feel that way. It has taken awhile for all of this to sink in. When I started this process I knew it was going to take awhile. Initially it was because I was on my agency’s singles list. I started the process in January ’06 and I wasn’t able to submit my dossier until December ’06.

On May 2 ’06 my agency called. A single woman in process backed out. I was able to submit my dossier. I prepared my dossier lickady split. It was sign, sealed and delivered to my agency on July 24th. It would have been sooner. But I was waiting on my immigration approval, which took 9 weeks.

At that point I was still under the delusion that is would be about 18 months.  Financially that worked for me.

As the realty of the wait unfolded I began to doubt that this would even happen. Month after month I have chased the “gotcha moments” of others. Watching it happen, reading the stories of other adoptive parents feeling like I do. Reassuring those of us waiting that at the end of this wait is a precious baby, my baby.

Slowly it has begun to sink in. I see the waiting parents in line before me being matched and I see others in line behind me. It’s happening, slow as it may be the matches are happening.

 At this point there is absolutely no evidence pointing to it not happening.  I am going with that. I know anything is possible. China could shut down, I could be thinner, and things could happen to me while I wait. Would, could, should… I have never let those 3 words dictate my course in life. I am not going to start now!

I am expecting!!!